It’s been my dream to be an actor since I was 9 years old. I ignored the cries of, “Oh, you’re never going to make it” or, “Statistically, you’re more likely to win the lottery than you are to become famous.” I was bull headed enough that I didn’t ever hear these negative comments. But I should have. I should have so I could have been more prepared financially. To figure out how to look further ahead than just this week and the next.
Since I didn’t follow the ‘ordinary’ path, I don’t have a lot of routines to keep my life regular, but this means I’m an out of shape (we can say the word: fat), short, girl in my late 20s, still desperately trying to ‘make it.’
The first time I moved to LA (well, Long Beach), I was still engaged to my ex fiancée, Mike, and was very thin since we didn’t have a lot of money for food. I booked a lot of cool gigs, including a lead in an indie film called Hope’s Identity, commercials with HP, and was a lead in a few intriguing plays. I also found voice over acting and performed as Mitzi Hunt in one of my favorite video games, The Cat Lady. Yes, we were hungry and sleeping in a living room, but I was finally living my dream.
After a few months of working and trying, but failing to make it, we accepted we needed to move back to Redding to regroup. And we did – moving back to San Francisco afterwards, and then breaking up. I moved to Concord for 3 months to get over the sad sack. When I finally moved back to LA, I was on the curvier side, due to my cooking and pot smoking binges to deal with getting over Mike.
When I was thinner, I played a stripper hanging upside down from aerial silks holding a machine gun, attacking the baddies who were trying to kill us. Now that I’m bigger, I get a lot of gigs modeling or doing stand-in work (I played a stand in for Melissa McCarthy after she’d lost some weight. That was pretty cool.).
I play background characters that aren’t distractingly pretty and have good facial expressions. I play the ‘ugly’ girl that supports the artsy fartsy author rather than the Kardashian-esque one. And mostly it freaking sucks. Nobody wants to be described as ugly. And even when I was 101 pounds, I was still too curvy for a lot of gigs.
So, I’ve often been stuck between skinny and fat. I’m a character actor. Have been since I started acting in theater when I was 9. Always the friend, rarely the lead. And that made me happy when I was doing theater; that I have the flexibility and talent to play an arm’s length worth of in depth quality roles. But in the film business, it’s the ingenue; the female lead, that has all the complexities usually only found in a character role in theater. And so, generally, if I want to make something interesting and/or funny, I have to dig into the only two sentences of dialogue I’m usually given in my auditions in the last few years.
I am so effing grateful to so many women and men trying to break the stigma of a fat woman having a relationship, or being the lead in a film, commercial or play, with no nod to, “Oh look how inclusive we are!! There are Fats in MY commercial/movie/TV show!!” To watch a show that, like pretty much anywhere outside of central and southern California (although even down here there’s weight varieties), has people of varying weights and sizes.
I went home up to Redding a few years back after I had just been told I had too many curves for a specific role. And I was the skinny one. I was LA fat, but Redding skinny. And I’m not saying that if you’re fat, you’re healthy. Shoot, I’m not even saying you’re healthy when you’re thin. I’m just saying that every person’s body, male or female, is different. Every person’s story is different. And we all deserve to have ours told.
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Brittany Morgan Williams is a 27-year-old voice actress, writer, and book editor. Originally from Redding, California, she graduated from Humboldt State University with degrees in Theater, Film, and Dance as well as English and has been able to utilize skills learned there in her chosen careers. She’s lived in Los Angeles for three years pursuing her career goals. Brittany has produced 6 audiobooks with Dana Burkey and edited 16 books with her.
Currently, Brittany is book editor for Dana Burkey and Tom Monson. She is currently writing a young adult apocalyptic book as well as a dramatic play. She also writes content for Exsplore.com and Candid Chronicle.
Voice over wise, Brittany just completed 2 video games, ‘Tales’ and ‘Planet Explorers.’ She is currently in the animated series ‘VonnWorld’ with director Christopher Ellis. In 2017, you can hear Brittany in the animated film ‘The Windwater Pack,’ in the podcast ‘Talisman of Hoshruba,’ the audiobook ‘Melin,’ and the audiobook ‘The Archimage Wars.’
She’s actively auditioning and always open to new voice over, editing, and writing gigs!