It’s been my dream to be an actor since I was 9 years old. I ignored the cries of, “Oh, you’re never going to make it” or, “Statistically, you’re more likely to win the lottery than you are to become famous.” I was bull headed enough that I didn’t ever hear these negative comments. But I should have. I should have so I could have been more prepared financially. To figure out how to look further ahead than just this week and the next.
Since I didn’t follow the ‘ordinary’ path, I don’t have a lot of routines to keep my life regular, but this means I’m an out of shape (we can say the word: fat), short, girl in my late 20s, still desperately trying to ‘make it.’
The first time I moved to LA (well, Long Beach), I was still engaged to my ex fiancée, Mike, and was very thin since we didn’t have a lot of money for food. I booked a lot of cool gigs, including a lead in an indie film called Hope’s Identity, commercials with HP, and was a lead in a few intriguing plays. I also found voice over acting and performed as Mitzi Hunt in one of my favorite video games, The Cat Lady. Yes, we were hungry and sleeping in a living room, but I was finally living my dream.
After a few months of working and trying, but failing to make it, we accepted we needed to move back to Redding to regroup. And we did – moving back to San Francisco afterwards, and then breaking up. I moved to Concord for 3 months to get over the sad sack. When I finally moved back to LA, I was on the curvier side, due to my cooking and pot smoking binges to deal with getting over Mike.