Ever since I was 9 years old and played a fertile Jewish woman in my 5th grade play, it’s been my dream to work as an actress in LA. However, I never truly assessed how hard it would be. Life seems to be one big roller coaster of screw yous, getting things wrong, and figuring yourself out and what makes you happy— and that route doesn’t exactly pay the bills.
Rejection from more ‘normal’ jobs like administrative, teaching, and engineering ones(yup, that’s my super broad definition of jobs. Hence my current aspirations) is a very real part of life. I did well at finding part time jobs throughout high school and college (non-threatening McSmiley pants over here), but once I started pushing for part time and sometimes even full time work, I realized how underqualified I was for so many jobs (writing and editing full time), and how overqualified I was for many others (say, a clown or movie theater usher). Overall, I want a career that gives me the flexibility to work within my limited physical means and is still a challenge— that gets me thinking at least a few times a day.
Rejection has been a consistent part of my life since I was a small child and got involved in the theater world (there’s also a certain level of rejection one gets from being number four out of six kids). It’s a bit difficult to start a hobby/life love with middle aged directors and cast members commenting how they hate working with kids (Even if you’ve worked your 12-year-old patooty as hard as you can. Seriously Nunsense cast. I heard every negative word you guys said in the dressing rooms. Bet ya didn’t think I would become a writer!).